Two weeks without Al Huda, what a waste of my life. Dunya (world) may taste very sweet, but it leaves such a bitter after taste. But I didn’t realize this until I was on my flight back to Canada, out of my journey from dunya. I wish it didn’t take me that long to realize this, all my time wouldn’t have gone to waste. But the way I realized all this made me be certain that my thoughts have definitely changed from before.
During my whole flight I just there, watched a movie, studied a little, and counted down the time I would reach Canada. When the captain announced our initial descend, I realized I didn’t make any dua. So I began making dua and thinking about my family and slowly the plane slanted to the side and I could see the world under me. Toronto looked so beautiful I couldn’t believe it. Slowly the plane leveled off and I could see the sky. It was close to Maghrib time, so the sun was about to go down soon. Seeing the skies extend all over the horizon amazed me. I have traveled many times before and seen the earth and sky, but never like this. This time it felt as if I had never seen the skies and earth. Looking at how beautiful these creations were made me think how beautiful the creator must be. Seeing how huge the world was made me think how huge the creator must be.
I could feel tears filling up in my eyes. It reminded me of the time we were learning about Rabbul Alameen in Surah Fatihah. To help us digest who a Rabb is, we were shown a presentation of how huge the creations are and how insignificant we are. We are absolutely nothing compared to the other creations, while we think of ourselves as so high. Then I started to remember how all these days had gone to waste, how all these days I was disconnected from Allah. How could I even do tha I wondered? Allah who has given me so much, who has created this beautiful world, who is SO powerful and strong, how can I disobey Him? I couldn’t understand how I managed to let two weeks fly by.
As I think back to those two weeks, I realize how we ruin ourselves by wasting our time. We waste our lives doing the same routine, everyday have the same goals, have the same schedule. But the Qur’an changes you so much. Everyday you wake up to a new goal, to a new idea. You never want to give up.
These two weeks made me realize how poisonous dunya is. Once the poison’s in you, you need to suck it out. But other times you need to take precautions and protect yourself from it.
Don’t let dunya get to you. In the end it only deceives you, it only betrays you…
…that’s all it ever did for me.
Fasiha
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this brought tears in my eyes.it made me think and reflect